Shadows of Time[poem][By: Devenny]

[Devenny]

I was your ally, I was your friend,
But now I'm the liar, and now I'm the fiend;
Yet in the end, when was I ever so mean?
I just wanted you to love me. I just wanted you to care.
So I faked every moment, to keep you standing there.
But now I'm standing here, infront of the cold,
Beneath the storm, above the mold.
The brick is hard, under my feet,
The drop is maddening, makes my stomach weak.
Going to fly, though you call it a fall,
This entire time, I couldn't take it at all.
You see me smiling, you see me laugh,
But underneath it all, deep in the abyss:
There's a girl, hungry and cold,
For the love, you've already sold.
The dark is lovable, the dark is mine.
The dark continues, in the shadows of time.
Could I get lost, inside those folds?
Never to find out, what is that you've told?
Could I dive deeper, into the night?
Never see morning, that garish light?
I could only wish, I could only dream,
That those hopes, that they really mean,
That I could live, between the times:
Of mild happiness, and hurtful crimes.
And so I jump, into the air,
To be caught, by the twilight there.
May its wings hug me, and my feeble needs,
May ground kiss so hard, it makes me bleed;
May the spirits sing, around my head,
Trying to wake me, but I'm already dead.
So broken, so crumpled, matching my hope for long ago,
As the sky begins to cry, as time begins to fold;
Taking me, saving me, in that little pocket of a minute.
My breath, gone. The moment, savored.
You watched me fly, you watched smile,
Now watch me fall, the only real thing in a while.
Can't you see, this is the real me?
The broken one, the one red and blue?
Do you love me now? Do you love me now?
Of course you do;
And now, sadly, the fiend, and the liar, is you.

-Devenny