This is what you wanted[poem][By:Devenny]

[Devenny]

Is this what you wanted:
Me all alone?
Is this what you wanted:
A heart with no home?
Because I surely cannot live,
I surely cannot breathe,
Without you here,
Living, breathing, right on beside me.

No where to go,
I sit here, drowning in my sorrow.
No where to look,
I shift awkwardly, then pull out a book.
But all the stores' novels,
And all the words I read,
Cannot--will not--fill my need.
My need to be with you,
Living and breathing.
My need to hold you,
And always believing:
That love truly exists.

Is this what you wanted:
A crimson stained floor?
Because all of this silence,
I can't take anymore.
I wish rather for hurt,
Then this cold numb stare,
Then the person in the mirror,
Then the fact you're not there.
Not there ever,
But always in my dreams.
Why aren't you like that figure?
Instead of one so mean?

Your eyes say its my fault,
The reason you won't talk.
The why behind the pain,
The justice behind the insane.
Are words just too much?
Are you afraid they just might touch,
The center. The beginning.
That heart you hold so dear,
The one I'll never see,
The one I've always feared.

This is what you wanted:
An always silent me.
This is what you wanted:
To be finally free,
Of the anger, of the sneer,
That you face always adopts when I'm near.
This is what you wanted:
A person with no resist.
This is what you wanted:
My hand no longer in a fist,
Limb at my side, opposite from yours,
Since you answered my plead:
My silent plead for hurt.

I didn't know I wanted it,
But you made it clear.
And you didnt know you wanted me,
Until I wasnt here.
Until I wasnt happy,
Until i didnt speak,
Until the grass grew on me,
And every part of me was weak.
Until the winter kissed my soul,
Until my heart refused to beat.

This is what you wanted:
An always silent me.
When you told me to be quiet,
And never make a peep.
When you promised me presents,
Diamond rings and more,
When you kissed my lips and whispered,
The name of another her.
When the bruises never faded,
And the scars remained too bold,
You locked me up away,
Until I grew very cold.

This is what I wanted,
I promise its true.
This is what i wanted,
At least now I'll never betray you.
Though my lips are no longer red,
Though this water around me fills my chest,
Though the heart inside me is quite dead,
I am happy behind this body posessed.
I can feel the wind caress my cheeks,
That faithful draft as a rat squeaks.
Death is far more reliable then you,
Always sudden,
But very true.

-Devenny

[say WHAT??]

WOW!!!! That's niiiiiice

[Devenny]

I'm glad you like it!
Thanks for the post!!! ^^;

[*starry skies*]

Gah! That was awesome! lol You've got mad skills girl